Today I was having a discussion with a friend of mine and I spoke things about myself which i would never speak even to myself. This brought to my mind, the thought, that, we, in the mad rush, have forgot to look inside us. The friend I am talking about has been selected as an intern at Microsoft. We were talking about the placements(hot topic) scenario for the next session. He told me that even MS is not going to come to NSIT. I, as always, was not visibily perturbed at the fact (more because I dont stand much of a chance for MS). And this is the dialog
me: “ yaar tujhe kya tension hai, tujhe toh aise hi PPO mil jaaega”
he: “abe aise nahi hota, vahaan kaam bhi toh karna padega”
me: “vaise toh mujhe koi tension nahi hai, mera kaunsa ho jaana tha usme”
“mujhe toh pata hai ki main kisi chhotti si company mein hi kaam karne vala hu”
This sentence of mine is what is disturbing me. I am not that unambitious a person.
But I said those words , this implies i must have been thinking on those lines in my sub-concious.
I hate to think that i would not be enjoying the life that i had thought i would when i chose to take up engineering as a career.
These are just thoughts that i was trying to get out of my mind. That is why i wrote them here so that i dont feel burdened by them anymore.